So I haven’t blogged in a long time…I’ve actually been pretty busy falling in love. Sounds funny, but it’s true. And it’s the first time it’s ever happened for me. Yes I was married for 6 years; it still didn’t happen. So now it has happened and it’s happened fast. Leaves little time for blogging, even mini-blogs like Twitter. So I’ve dropped off the face of the earth kind of, and now I’m wondering how to get back on. I guess this is the first step.
It’s funny how things get more daunting the longer we leave them. Like broken relationships, misunderstandings, laundry. And we allow ourselves to be ruled by these things because they scare us, so we think about them constantly and torture ourselves. Facing up to anything is easier than the stuff we put our minds through, every single time. Take a break-up for example. If you know your relationship isn’t going well, is not what you want or need and in all likelihood will not change because they are who they are and that’s how life works, then it’s far better to make the decision to leave the relationship, do what you have to do, grieve and begin to heal that to brood for years and let it become your everest. I know we avoid pain, it’s a very human trait. But by avoiding pain, we create more pain. Every time. Just watch The Village, that movie epitomizes why it doesn’t work to run from or avoid hurt. It’s everywhere. Lean into it and it shrinks.
So I am blogging again, because I don’t want my absense to become bigger than my presence. This is a small thing really…but if I can’t master myself, then what can I master?